deviant ART

yeah i think its bull shit when other artist get to do what ever they fucking wish to do and if myself post an image my shit gets yeanked down faster then a virgin popping his nut for the first time. this kind of segragation and depravation gets really mothefucking old after a while!

so i am going to post something really god damn dirty in a couple of days!

why becouse this is fucking BULLSHIT! and i hate sites that cater to certain artist like this one!

-taken from my comment to my wife Jamie's post called FUCK IT!

see i post images that where tamer then this certain artist works
albeit he is an amazing artist BUT THIS IS BULL SHIT!
my works get torn away and yet his remain.

see this proves a point some places cater to artist who either spend money at the site so they are in the clear and the site dont wanna lose that CASH FLOW and frankly the products here that this site sells are shit i would not buy anything from this fucking place if it was half off or buy 1 get 1 free! if i get kicked from here Dumb Asses DA, they should send me a FREE BANNED SHIRT!

this site take for fucking ever to load just to get a goddamn 404 error message! and i have to sit forever to get my goddamn messages and half the time i get a not autherized screen! IT MY FUCKING MESSAGES WHY ARNT I AUTHERIZED? cock sucking bull shit!

and Jamie is so PISSED at this place she is only going to post test images herself taking my advice! we dont need fucking mods who take to other artist and these pinheads cater to them and not the rest of us!
that is basicaly RACIST! in a form artisticaly RACIST!

what is good for the goose is sure as hell good for the gander ass hats!

-taken from the end for me from my wife Jamie;s journal here at DA

yeah the lag time in this fucking site sucks dog cock!

i could make love to my wife 5 times over, make dinner, wash my hair, and kill 25 fucking people before my page loads just to get a goddamn 404 error message about the stupid page!
and yeah DR is becomming my new home as well. still counting down the days till i am shafted at rosity.

and as for DA (dipshit ass hat) FUCK this place its poorly run and the admins here wouldnt know art long enought to get their hands off of there cocks or their fingers out of their pussies to notice it!

and i stand by both comments! its like romper room around here
instead of good grades its CASH MONEY MONEY YEAH YEAH SPEND SPEND SPEND! to help keep what? your fucking byast pockets filled so you can kick the artist who come here and wish not to buy your shitty t-shirts and ooooohhhh coffee mugs? FUCK THAT! i can go to k-mart and buy those things cheaper and talk about money grubbing cock suckers! this place FUCK YOU ARTIST OVER IF YOUR SELLING PRINTS!
they get 90% of the sale! oh yeah that is a fucking deal! let me make jack shit off of my hard work so they can turn a profit! what a big ass load of horse shit! this place is greedy and untrust worthy as well as the mods and admins are shifty people! what a way to run a site!

kick me fine you do that take my fucking images down as well becouse none of you do that to other artist you kick, you leave their shit up and why? so you can prolly finger bang yourself or jerk off to it!
you have NO rights to keep the images up! after all they are copywriten material to one said artist!

so go piss and cry spoiled bitches! this is the main reason why i have no respect for this site! and that is evedent of how much MONEY you spend to keep your art up or how many asses you kiss or what ever the next time i get shit for posting a XXX images i will call the prejudice card here and fucking tell every one how ARTISTICLY RACIST AND HOW PREJUDICE this site really is!

FREEDOM OF SPEECH 1st amendment! what now?

i have exposed more lies from the table cloth as well as step up on my soap box once again and for the 3 people who read this you should really thing twice about being here in this site filled with artist who are being shit on you never know if your next! and you never know how many other artist are aginst you becouse they see your works and get jelouse becouse you being more original then them or you works are just plaine and simply BETTER then theirs! so watch your asses!

I AM DONE!
-Patrick

well since people i know (outside of any site as in DA rosity DR and such even my boss who owns and runs his own site) they like to tell my wife she is hot and so on and so on. well as her husband i GET FUCKING TIRED OF IT!
yeah i got a hot totaly fuckable wife ok? the only guy she fucks is me, and the only tiddie pics of her who gets to see them is me. now RESPECT HER AS A PERSON! and as an ARTIST i dont talk shit about your ladies do i? (for those who are married and or have girlfriends) GOD DAMN! where has decentcy gone now adays let me just say this every one who hits on her is actualy disrespecting her, what dose this mean for all the DE de dees out there? if you say anything to her tell her she is pretty and leave it at that, becouse there is no chance in hell of seeing her NUDE your one and only shot at that is like this....... a RENDERED IMAGE and remember this as well you disrespect the woman you also disrespect the man. any of you who have any idea or code of honor would know what this means. you see she tends to block ass hats who peter her for shit like that you get 3 warnings and then your done pester her in her gallery she reports your ass for harrassment! thats the bottome line becouse i will do the same!

and well for the DE de deees it means shut the fuck up! thats prolly why you dont have a woman in your life, or ever will have one 45 years old living in your parents basement with a cyber-sex partner in a furry RPG room dont make it. or helga the dwarf in World of Warcraft dont cut it either. and this is why your alone you dont respect any one let alone there woman! and that is why you most likely lost some of your friends after they got married or what ever.

see wife jokes arnt really that funny "YO MOMMA" jokes are those are really all in good fun when you wanna play "snaps" but ya see your messing with another mans bread and butter. what he lives, breathes, and dies for.
home is where the heart is, this means you love some one and you get that love in return, you dont have that right to fuck with it. see now i get all excited and i cant shut up.

see i got this friend i talk to on msn and he is all like your wife is so hot she needs to post pics showing off how sexy she is man i would love to see her boobs and shit.
my wife aint jerk off meat ok fucknob? and when i joke about getting his rosity account kicked he gets all pissy well i'll have you reported to the authoreties, and shit.
i made my point respect my wife and i wont tell my friend to fuck with your gallery by posting gay porn on it. not one word was said to me about her since then!
and the only nudes any one is gunna see of her is me! you all get the reproduction of it in a rendered image!

bottom line is this for all the smart people
you respect another mans woman just like you want your woman to be respected.
and for all the DE de dees the lesson is, i think helga is waiting for you just out side of the oblivion gate and your furry mistress need to punish her bad litttle doggie, and stick with your downloading of 150gb of porn a day. and just keep making yourself look stupid to the world. i mean we all know you havea hot date with those 150gb of porn and some lotion and a box of tissues dont keep them waiting!

yeah and so what i went mind of Mencia on you! i have a right to De de dee!

now enjoy yourselfs looking at my wife. this is the only way your going to get to see her nude.

-Patrick

i make statements to break bitches, and expose the truth.


this was the artist comments on my latest Jamie picture and well
Paul
Peter
Lenn (as fare as i can remember)
this rant dont go to you guys you guys have respect! and thank you!

and shit how many of you who have me on your watch list really reads what i have to say? i bet 2 of you maybe 3?

ok a bit of a rant
then a bit of a complaint
and s little more rant
and well i am pretty much fucking done!

rant.
what is the BIG fucking deal with you poser people!
your always at us daz users to fucking make the turn to poser!
get off of your high horse and back off and do you wanna know why i say that? BECOUSE OF THIS!
examplle LOOK AT MY PROFILE ON THE FONT PAGE AND SEE WHAT I USE! there is a long ass list of what i use, so BACK OFF OF ME! but the point i am trying to make here is this god fucking damn it!
IT DONT MATTER WHAT RENDER ENGINE YOU USE WE ARE ALL ARTIST AND THAT MAKES US ALL BROTHERS AND SISTERS! BECOUSE WE ARE ARTIST SO POSER PEOPLE SHOW DAZ ARTIST A LITTLE MORE RESPECT AND DAZ ARTIST SHOW POSER ARTIST A LITTLE MORE RESPECT! it dont matter to me what the art engine is if i like the art then i like it! dont matter if it is cave man scribbles on a fucking wall when you render it in what ever render engine you use we are artist so leave it at that! god i have a dream but nobody cares nobody wants to listen! SO PLEASE FUCKING LISTEN TO ME! for once! i myself am not byist when it come to an image i like no matter the render engine and if your an artist you should be the same damn way, so stop putting us down poser artist, we all need to stop the bull shit becouse of the fact that we are artist.

complaint
about myself and my fellow artist here at DA i know i have been bad about looking in your galleries and such but i have been so fucking busy making and remaking and redoing and so on and so forth with textures and other things and being sick with the flu dont help either it has slown me down to a near crawl and i am sorry i know i have more then a life time worht of stuff to catch up on and one day i promiss i will.

little rant
why in the blue hell is it that when you are sick it seems like your getting better but your not? i was feeling pretty good last nite and then today uhhh kill me! i hurt all over i have so much snot i could fill lake michigan and i keep coughing up flem that could fill a damn olimpic sized pool, why dose that happen? and does any one else get tired of all the meds and the snot/flem/weakness/hotness/sweating/coughing/puking/insomnia like i do? god i hate being sick! its the only time i feel like i wanna just internaly combust lol. who all hates being sick? i knopw i do! and now Jamie is comming down with it as well.

I AM FUCKING DONE!
after my 250th image at rosity i am basicaly done.
i will post an image there when i feel that i have something worth posting there, the only exception is cyberboy magazine. but other then that my prductivity there is goingto slow down alot as well as posting here and at DR now. ITS NO FUN ANY MORE! and i am just tired i try so fucking hard to please all of you and i fail no honerable mention in the art charts or even making the art charts all the contest i enter i never get placed and i know all of my dedication images dont mean snot in a tisse to any one mostly. yeah i have some good friends there here and well one at DR and Jamie, but still, i am not at any of you guys calibure for being an artist my style is bashed and smashed to no end and i have to deal with all that shit from behind the sences and such. i get made to feel like i dont belong i was once called a shitty artist by several people including the owner of rotica becouse he would rather have his jerk off material not bothered with and didnt wanna take the time to listen becouse of one of his fave little fucktarts, i dont have the faith like i used to in my skills and art any more and basicaly i dont care any more. and why should any of you care? and every experiment i have tried has failed as well and i can tell by the bullshit comments i get on my works, and beleave me i know a bullshit comment when i see one dont be afraid to tell me it suck i am used to that shit so dont candy coat anything for me ok? i dont need to be fed bull shit a little honnesty wont hurt. and i just wanted to leave a mark in this world of 3D art and well i have failed very well at it i might add. any one who knows me will know that i am not crying out for sympathy or what ever you may see this for, those who know me know that i am being honnest and just telling you what is on my mind and in my heart. if you are thinking "aww poor pitty you" i got your answer right here FUCK YOU!
its no fun anymore
i am rapidly losing interest
i hate opening any render engine i have its making me sick every time i do i hate it more then my worst enime!
i go by unnoticed 95% of the time with any thing i make or try so why bother any more?
my fucking life is controlled by the render engines to make people who dont care or just want to beat me down and fucking spit on me rather then give a fuck about me and my art that i make to try to make them happy WHY SHOULD I LET PEOPLE LIKE THAT AND THE FUCKING RENDER ENGINES CONTROLL MY LIFE I AM NOT YOUR PERSONAL JOKE MONKEY ANY FUCKING MORE!
i'm sick of the copycats, liers, and the goodie two shoes out there.
i just cant be part of a system such as this any more. i am going rogue from now on, not saying i am going to become a hell rasier or trouble maker but i am going to make art to post when i feel that it is what i want to post. i'm not doing it for you any more! ART IS FOR THE ARTIST! either your in or your out but as i said i am going rogue i am half way in the door and dont ask me to move becouse there are other doors you can go through this one is fucking mine! so basicaly what i am saying is i pretty much am leaving the whole art sence, if you see a post from me after my 250th at rosity be very supried if it isnt a cyberboy magazine becouse that is pretty much the only thing i will be prolific with. other then that be suprised! I AM FUCKING DONE!

i had a dream but no body cares no body wants to listen.

-Patrick

well Jamie had said something about copycats and now i am going to talk about that and some other things.

first off i have never copyed any one elses images, been done to me a number of times, and well you know if you take and copy some ones image you could atleast say i was inspired by whom ever did it.

shit a new prop, pose, texture, or clothing hits shelfs and EVERY one uses it, what is this? i get a new toy i wait for a long ass time so all the copycat shit is over with. and i dont fall into the cat-agory lol of oh well here is another robot just following the trend like the rest of us, i am an alien (sorry lol watched the new heroes tonite) what i am saying is this. yes its great to show off a new toy, but does every one have to do it all at the same time?

i see how freely a new character that some one has created is in all the new pics lol let go crazy with this and that, we cant think for our selves and we need to be just like every one else.
come on art is for the artist even those with limited imaginations, but man it gets boring and even dare i say GENERIC? and or i speak the word that will send me to hell! it gets redundant most of the time. like watching the same movie over and over and over again! or even the same song, you get bored with what you see, i like to try to keep my viewers on there toes with my gallery. i like to mix things up a bit and not try to fit in with what ever club or mantality of copycatting. that just not me i am always out side of the box.

and as for the people who are like oh hey there is a picture of this or that and well i am gunna put the same thing up and try to make the other artist look bad, becouse what ever you can do i can do better i fucking hate artist like that that has been done to me as well it dont fucking matter if your a bigger name then me that dont matter one bit. and i dont have time to deal with ass hats who act like that.

or even those who pay no respect to me for giving them massive props when i post a dedication to them. i've lost one or two artist who i payed big respect to becouse i saw them as heroes as artist i had wished to be like, shit not any more i am my own person and i make art for myself i dont care if anyone else likes it, or looks at it i do it for me. my last few both recent and up comming dedications are for friends and people who do apriciate my art but having some one look at it and like it is the bonus it lets me know i did something right.

and on to the next thing! i know i make some crappy images at times but i still get the "oh wow this is awesome i so love this image!" etc kinda stuff is rather odd, i dont like being glad handed by anyone. and this goes for those artist who say shit like "i would have done it this way or that way that just my opinion" you call that helping or giving advice? no its not and did you sit your ass down for several hours and ignore your wife while your are making the image I POSTED? fuck no! so keep your "opinion" to yourself! if you have advice then give it you dont need to be a dick about it you didnt make the image so keep your "i would have opinion" shit to yourself if you wanna help me then help wanna look like an ass hat in my comments then go ahead look like one becouse for that one comment there are more that stand aginst it. there have been some artist who have given me some good advice and they wernt dicks about it they actualy helped out and i learned something from them as well.

my dreams of the art charts and winning some kind of contest at rosity are dead, and my wife is becoming a better artist then i, am i mad about her winning the POTW at darker realms? hell no i am proud of her for that! i hope she wins more POTW and shit i hope she wins a POTM! how did she get so good? from friends who really help out with advice and from me as well with all the things i have learned and all the times i have experimented and found things out on my own, shit me mad at her HELLO NO i am so very very proud of her!

i myself have slowed down on rendering actual images i have been doing more test renders then anything why? i am a part of a team now and i am making textures exclusivly for a site i will not name yet (some of you may already know what site. hint: what textures have i made and for what products and what site? another hint: look in my DA gallery that should give you some kind of clue) so me myself i know success as well. i may just give up being a render artist and go texture creater full time, open my own little shop up at a very nice site and just go from there, my 250th image is comming up what a better time to quit then at #250? i dont know yet nothing is set in stone.
i havent really decided yet as to what i want to do i may just post when ever i have something to post? if it comes down to it that would be the route i would take. like prolly 2 maybe 3 times a week if i have something to share?

well that is it i am stepping off of my soap box i have the flu and a killer tooth ache going to take more NyQuil and prolly a heavy duty pain killer and go to bed after i smoke my cig. yeah that sounds like a plan bed time, i get to sleep next to the sexyest woman in the world!
she is an ex-gothic clothing model for a new york store, and her name is Jamie but you may know her as Contessa Jay, yeah thats my wife.

-Patrick

OK well here is hte good and bad news

ok well my first week back to work after my 3 and a half month lay off (the place i worked at got bought out by another company)
i am being retrained to do the job i was doing, getting paid for it yes
but still dumb ass company idea!

now here is the part i dont like, after being laid off for that long period of time I MAY LOSE my job any how......

can anyone make a bit of fucking sence over this?

here let me simplify for all of you out there.

LAID OFF company was bought out and the workers put on the sit and wait list, was collecting partial unemployment then i get a call....
being RETRAINED for a job i was already doing..........
when the NEW SHOP OPENDS i may bnot have a job, i may get cut as in be out of a job all together and i cant claime unemployment becouse i havent been with that company for X-amount of time.........

WHAT IS THE SENCE IN ALL OF THIS?


ok well if any one has a clue please tell me
-Patrick